SPOILED BRAT! WHO?? ME?? NOOO.....

Last Sunday I had a skit rehersal with the Legal Aiders (a group of volunteer lawyers at the KL Legal Aid Centre) as we will be performing at the Legal Aid Gala Charity Dinner & Dance this coming Saturday, 14.3.2009.

Anyway, it was not a particularly good day for me so when the rehersal finally started I was already feeling very crappy and was in no mood to act or reherse or whatever.

When it was my time to do my bit of the skit, I whined and begged to go last and dragged my feet and just simply refused to do it. It was very unprofessional and childish, I know, but dammit, I just didn't have it in me at that moment. I just needed some time to compose and collect myself.

Somehow, I got up to the stage and uttered about 4 sentences before I jumped off the stage in frustration and said that I am not up to doing it now, can I please have some time and that I will do it later because at that moment it just doesn't feel right and I know if I went ahead and do it then, it will be shitty and I absolutely hate doing half baked jobs. If I'm gonna do something, it has to be my best.

Luckily I managed to snap out of it and finally did my part over and over and over again. But although I was feeling much better, I couldn't help feeling really guilty and slightly embarrased at everyone there. I was uncooperative, childish and unprofessional. In other words, I was being a spoiled brat..

But as a consolation, at least to myself, when I finally did it, I felt that I had given my best.

In any event, I just wanna say I'm sorry to everyone there.. Really.