About 6 months or so ago, a couple of my friends told me that they think I look happier than I have ever been. Well, to tell the truth, I really was and I still am. Why wouldn't I be? After countless heartaches, almost drowning in my own tears, doing stupid things, losing weight more than I ever thought I even could and *gasp* losing my appetite (something I never thought could ever possibly happen to me), I finally found the RIGHT guy (that's my syg, Amiruddin Khalid). Note that I didn't say the PERFECT guy because despite my obsession with perfection, I know that there is no such thing as the perfect guy. Despite his imperfection, I love him to bits and those imperfections are nothing compared to all that he is.
I love him for understanding every time I have to work late and/or work on a weekend. Once he even kept me company while I was working at the office from morning till about 2.00 in the afternoon on a SUNDAY during Ramadhan and after 'buka puasa' went back to the office with me and stayed till 11pm. He would've stayed longer if I didn't chase him away.
I love him for being patient every time my temper got the best of me or every time I threw a tantrum. Never once did he raise his voice at me, walk away from me or hang up on me. If I ever hang up on him, he would call back and would wait patiently until I say something and would not hold anything against me. Saying all this makes me look bad but I don't care, he loves me anyway.
I love him for caring about and for me (sometimes a little too much that I feel guilty). He would worry about whether I had gotten home safely, he would worry if I haven't eaten, he would worry if I feel even the slightest discomfort and/or sick. Once, he couldn't reach me on my cell phone (my batteries were out), he got so worried that he came all the way from Seremban (he lives there) to my house in Gombak just to make sure that I was okay. Actually, he did this twice.
He would always make sure that I have everything that I need or everything that he thinks I need, from my basic needs to the not-so-basic-needs and everything in between. Once, we were talking on the phone and I mentioned that I was sweaty because the weather that night was a bit hot so he bought me a pair of shorts and a baby T for me to wear at home so I would be comfortable.
He would always go out of his way for me. If and when I have to go to Bangi Court, he would always insist on picking me up from court, have breakfast or lunch with me (depending on what time I finish my matter), send me back to my office in Kuala Lumpur (because I don't drive to Bangi) and then go back to Seremban.
I love him for being sensitive and empathetic. When my kitten died and I cried on a public bus (we were out), he didn't care that people were staring and didn't ask me to stop crying because of that. He just put his arms around me and let me be. When my hamster died, he bought me 4 hamsters to replace the one that I lost because he said "I know how much you love your hamster and how sad you were when he died so I bought these to make you happy".
Most important of all, I love him because he loves me for who I am. He has never tried to change me or anything about me. He never tells me that I need to lose or gain weight; that I would look better if I lose my glasses and wear contact lens; he never dictates what I should wear and how I should look; he won't even bat an eyelid and would still tell me that I look great if I went to meet him without any make up on (not that I usually use much, just the basic stuff) or with an unruly hair (which is always the case) and has never tried to get me to straigtened my hair or something "just so I would look better" (it has happened to me before). But on the other hand, would always support me if I wanted to do something like cut my hair really short even if he likes it if I keep it long.
Don't get me wrong, it's not that I love him for the things that he does for me. I love him simply because I do and that makes me happy (of course, it certainly is a bonus that he is such a wonderful guy!) I love you so much Syg!
"I wouldn't mind showing the whole world my weaknesses just so 1 person can see even one of his strength"
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